My Heart Is Broken...

Moo Schilling
January 25, 2007- June 21, 2008

I experienced one of the saddest days to note in my life this last week. It's taken me a while to understand and cope with what has happened, and sorry to those that I may have ignored while I needed some time. Before I start, I will say that Katie and Mia were out visiting and we did manage to have a great time. Sorry Katie if I wasn't as chipper and energetic as I usually am, the timing just kinda sucked:(
This last Saturday night/early Sunday morning Moo passed away. One of my biggest fears- something that I had nightmares about and probably always will now, came to pass. Moo was hit by a car the other night while we were away. I blame myself entirely because I was off goofing around and having fun and Moo was home alone. I shudder to think about what was going through her mind in her last moments, "Where is everyone? Have I been forgotten?" She was not the type to run away or even go off exploring. She was like my shadow and didn't even need a leash.
Part of the horror to this experience was that I was the first one that came across her. When I found her it looked as though she was sleeping on the side of the road, but after hours of calling her name I knew she would have heard me if indeed she was napping. I screamed and woke the entire neighborhood. I couldn't breathe and just bawled in the street for a long time. My sweet husband and dad came to my side, and placed her sweetly in a box with her favorite toys and dolls.
That next morning, very somber Weber and Schilling families gathered together to bury and mourn for her. We all loved her so incredibly much. She will be sorely missed. We all had the opportunity to share our favorite memories and quirks about Moo. We loved how she came running to greet you whenever you were home. We loved how she sat on your lap while watching a movie. I loved how she fit in my bike basket perfectly and loved going on rides. She made funny noises. She copied her auntie Kloe and whatever she did. I loved how she needed to be up close against me when we were falling asleep. I loved how she would try to protect me against dogs that were 10x her size. I loved how she played and teased me. Kloe loved her and is very sad to see her gone. I feel as though it was way too early for her to leave us, but I suppose it was her time. My aunt's dog, Maddi, just passed away not too long ago, so I know that she is taking good care of Moo and giving her all the love she needs and deserves. Moo was my joy and I love her always and forever..

Our little girl- the love of my life

I wanted to include some of my favorite pictures of Moo, because these pictures is how I will always remember her:

Moo as a baby chewing on one of her favorite chew toys:)

Halloween 2007. Moo was a strawberry and was adorable. Her cap was a little big though and made her vision just slightly impaired.

Her 1st birthday- seems like it was just yesterday.

Moo LOVED the beach. She was such a California girl at heart. The water did not phase her. If we jumped in, she would come right in after us. When Kirk was surfing she would wait at the shoreline and watch nervously; guess she never understood that Kirk really is a good surfer:)

Braxton was one of her good buddies. She misses you out in Vegas Braxton and and Nicole.

She was so smart.. It may seem hard to believe, but Moo knew English and totally understood me. She knew tricks and could run for miles and miles with me.

I loved how she would just sit and stare at me whatever I was doing. She needed people. She was seriously (and I don't care if I sound gay saying it) one of my best friends.

Man did she love her winter coat. And the lumberjack look worked really well for her.

Learning to sit? Oh that's baby stuff. Our girl was learning how to drive!

So many people loved you Moo, you will always be remembered.

No one even understood how much it meant to me, but the next day at church we talked about life after we all die. I love the gospel and knowing that there is so much more than this mortal life. Someone mentioned pets and how sacred and dear we hold them in our families. I won't forget the feelings that came over me knowing that Moo is someplace else right now and that she will still get to be part of our family. We all love you very much Moo and I will never forget you! When I finally make it up there later, I'll meet you at the dog park:)
Thank you for all the condolences, flowers and cards- I love you all xoxo